Gently down the stream….

August 18, 2008

Well, its not too gentle and its more like rapids than a stream, but the boat has set sail. I am officially NOT opening Zuri at Perkins Rowe. I made the call on Friday. There is a great deal of relief that comes with the decision, but it also brings a great deal of new stresses and concerns. Because I will be defaulting on my lease I will most likely be sued by Perkins Rowe for the rent from now until they find a replacement tenant. At $6000 a month things arent looking too bright.

A huge comfort that I have in this is that I am poor and really don’t have anything for them to sue me for!!! I’m not really positive what will come of that but I do know that it will come and that I’ll have to face it when it does. I’m not really sure what emotions I’m feeling right now. A little bit of everything I guess. My lease was finalized last November and since then I have been working my butt off for this store. I’ve had to work with architects, designers, storefront designers.. etc., to make the design perfect and suitable for the site. That part has been fun but also stressful. I’ve put everything I have into the details and created something really beautiful and different that will never come to fruition.

For the past 3 months or so, ever since I got my first bids on the construction part of it and realized my initial funding wouldn’t be enough.. I’ve been working with new contractors, and at the same time embarked on trying to find investors. This is something I’ve never had to do, and had no clue how to even begin. So I’ve been doing market research, creating projections for the next 10 years, making charts and graphs and everything else for investors. One investor I had locked down backed out. Awesome. And I had another really promising one that I couldn’t come to terms with. Roller coaster doesn’t even begin to define the last few months.

Then there’s the clothes. I’ve got thousands of dollars worth of high end merchandise just sitting in storage. Yes, I do have another store but, no I can’t sell this merchandise there because the market is not right. Trust me, I’ve tried it.

This opportunity was a dream come true for me. I couldn’t believe I had a lease at one of the hottest new venues in the state. Giving it up is not just a failed business venture for me… it entails so so so much more. So my emotions are all over the place. I’m thankful for where I am… and I know this is for my best interest but it is so extremely difficult to give it up. I’ve been thinking lately about how amazing my support system is. I know I have the greatest family and friends in the world who are so supportive so THANK YOU! Every hug, “i’m praying for you”, i love you, sweet email, bouquet means the world to me. I’m going to get away and spend a few weeks with my sister in New York, who… as God would have it, needs a little TLC herself. I’m so thankful we’ll be able to spend time with each other and I’ll just be able to CHILL OUT for a while!

Proverbs 3:5 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; (6) in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.”

If you pray for me, pray that that verse will be my truth and that I will be able to do that in the months to come. Love you all so much!!!! I promise the future posts will be less self centered and more like my initial posts. πŸ™‚


3 Responses to “Gently down the stream….”

  1. lauren Says:


    sad to hear that your plans will not come to fruition as you said…but who knows…if they had it may have been an even bigger head ache in the future. God’s got it. He always does. we don’t understand the twists and turns, but i’m praying it will work out in the end. have fun in new york!

  2. Amy Says:

    Lana, I can only imagine how difficult it is to let God shut a door that you really wanted to go through. I know if it were myself I would try to do anything I could to shove the door open even though the roof would fall in on me. I applaud you for being able to walk away that takes courage and faith (even though it may not seem like it now). I also think it is great that you can so humbly speak about it and put it out there. I have done this on many occasion and feel that it brings such a freedom and relief. Kindof like burning the bridge and being on a new path…. a beuatiful new grassy one with lots of wildflowers πŸ˜‰
    I will keep you in my prayers!

  3. Johny.B Says:

    I am sad in one since,but happy for you in the other do you realize that not many people you and I’s age make the come across or invest like you have and my friend my hat goes off to you,I am so proud of you!!
    (Psalms 119:165 For those who love your law have great peace,and nothing causes them to stumble )So remember the Lord is your rock and he is your strength he lights your path. Do not worry Trus in the Lord Lana ,The Lord is your Shepard ,so trust in him .I am preaching t my self hear because I let things worry me ,its easy to trust in the small things ,but those issues and situations that pile hard on you Satan has this way of just putting dought in you head ,and I hope you are not like me and when this stuff happens you have this recorder in your head that you are worthless and will never make an so on…..and I am no Baby Christian I know ,But Satan finds that weak spot self a steam on me My friend you are gonna be in my prayers and again I am so proud of you!

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